Am I Staying Strong???

haiz... i told myself tt i must be strong for her... but i think i cant... haiz... phone already 4 days nvr ring le... last time... almost everyday will receive her msg and her call at night... but now.. i juz feeling empty... haiz... today when out to buy her presents... i walk le for 1 hr 30 min and i only manage to buy birthday card for her... will go again tml to buy gift after exam... i juz scare tt my plan for her on her birthday will go down the drain... haiz... she told mi tt she will wait for mi till my exam finish... and she wants mi to accompany her... i felt happy of course... but tt is wad she told mi last week before she ignore mi... tee meng also want to accompany her on her birthday but she dun wan... i felt happy and feeling so lucky to haf her.... but now... there are a lot of fear in mi... a lot of question marks in my mind... haiz... i will still wait for her like how i wait my first admirer...

Emo Day

wad i haf done today... cant sleep the whole night... thinking of wad is she thinking abt... haiz... den nvr sleep lor... use comp... den jerry online and scold mi... lol... he ask mi why i nvr go school... i thought he gt go school... but he nvr lor... lol... haiz... no mood to do anything at all... haiz... wonder when will she tell mi... haiz... i dun wan my plan to ruin again lyk last time... 8/12/07... will she remember this date??? haiz... shall stop here... haiz...

O Lvl (Geography Paper 2)

was very worry that i cant do well for geography paper which i had studied a lot of this subject... cant sleep well the whole night... sleep at 1am plus... woke up at 3.28am... den sleep again.. woke up at 4.03am... den sleep again... woke up at 5.30am... den sleep again... woke up at 7.02am... so dun wish to sleep again le.. lie on my bed.. waiting for time to pass... reach abt 12.30... i go bath and i juz feel lyk sleeping juz to escape geography paper... i really very scare fail... haiz.. when i gt the paper.. the paper was quite ok... except the tourism part b... haiz.. dun noe how to do... lose 12 marks le... haiz... at 7.30... go for class... den 9 plus... joyce called... but i didnt answer as i was bathing... haha... she called back again at 10... at first chat till very happy de... but after tt... i very sad le... she had something to tell mi.. but she dun wan to say it out... i juz find it weird and i keep asking her... as i dun wan her to keep things to herself... haiz... den when both of us was quiet.. i say goodnight to her and i hang up the call... nt i wan to force her to say things out.. i juz sense tt something is wrong with her... haiz.. very moody now... shall stop here...

O Lvl (Chem paper 3)

haiz... today i was so scare tt i woke up at 3am plus... haiz... reach school... i feel lyk running out of school and dun tk my exam... i scare fail... haiz... my target is 20 point leh... actually nt my target la... people give mi de... haha... if i can get 20 point for L1R4 den the person dun talk to mi le... haiz... but getting a gd result is also nt for tt person la... is also for my own future... haiz... open chem paper booklet... was stunned by the question... dun even noe one of the question sia... haiz... after paper... feel lyk hiding one corner and cry... haiz... i cant fail my science paper... i nid science for my course... haiz...