Busy

hello... im back.... very busy for days... so tiring... but nvm la... dun noe wad happen to mi this few days... always keep lyk vomit... cough a lot... haiz... went to see her blog den realise that a lot ppl go scold her... my heart feel very hurt... it's nt her fault why scold her... this relationship cant blame anyone... haiz... she was forced to break up with mi... this one cant help de... haiz.. i juz wan to beg you ppl.. dun go and scold her le la... please... if you wan... i can kneel down to beg you ppl... i shouldnt haf say that she did nth... i really dun noe tt she did so much... and yet i shouted at her... wad is wrong with mi... haiz... i noe im busy... so busy to even blog or see ppl blog... haiz.. nvm... skipped.. driving lessons... attend 3 lesson... today went on road... instructor say i too gd le... den ask mi drive to clementi... lol... drive very fast lo... 80 km per hour... lol... but haf to slow down... haiz... skipped... this few days always go expo find guan ping... den go walk walk... looking for book which will cure illness... saw a few but no money to buy... im broke already... haiz... suddenly haf to support 2 ppl for their meals... haiz.. so used up my pay le lo... haiz... i will make sure they treat mi when they got their pay... sry for nt blogging well... i dun really haf the mood...

Life suck

can my life get worse den this??? so many troubles... all the stupid friends i had... i borrow money keep chasing mi for money... when they nid money... chasing mi to get money... WTH... nvm.... my bro.. this sun kena chase out of house le... how... finding unit for him.... overnight yesterday after class outing at sentosa... after outing... meet guan ping at my house.. den go guan ping house.. play with his cousin... den guan ping suddenly eat fire lo... go slap the cousin... aiyo... kids ma... sure noisy de ma.... haiz... kena sun burn again... fuck la... nvr tan my back also kena burn... tan front face kena burn... haiz... why bad thing are happening to mi one by one.... argh.. i hate this... to all those ppl who i owe... will return ASAP... but please la... i haf to work and spend it for myself right... and for those who owe mi money... im nt going to chase after you guys for money... take your time to return... i nt like ppl who is so fucking heartless who only think of themselves... especially P____!!!!

Tiring day

yesterday night there a 117 pax of Turkish friendship dinner... den im the food runner for banquet... i requested that i dun wan be bistro runner den stupid boss so put mi banquet runner... still can say i do banquet runner cause i haf more skills... lol... tired lyk hell... 117 pax leh... western somemore... argh... hand totally going to break le lo... run here and there... argh... 4 course somemore... when out the main course... my hand no strength liao den still haf dessert sia... den bistro finish work le so i call help lo... but i also do la.. half way through gt feeling that the tray wan to drop... walk damn damn fast till function room saw them ask mi faster help mi to take the tray... lucky nvr drop.... yesterday function room suddenly also haf a lot stuff when the belly dance start... aiyo... tray very heavy le still block my way... argh... wan to kill them lo... the dancer also nt nice la... still fat fat de lo... haiz... after the event finish... still haf to turnover for the next day function... argh... no strength le still haf to bring out the stage and round table... haiz... do half way... those who stay woodlands de all change le... waiting for mi... lol... den boss ask mi faster go change and go take cab with them... lol... no one tell mi and i still happy happy working lo... gt in cab... sleep till timah plaza there... reach home only... no one at home.. gt shocked... call my mum ask them where are they... they at orchard... lol.... midnight go see xmas lighting...

back

wahaha... im back... very fan this few days go close blog for a while... wont be posting so often le... take care.. will post when im free...

Ten Brothers

i finally finish watching ten brothers after 3 days of midnight... lao da and xiao lan one couple... lao san and tong tong one couple... as ten brothers are nt human... they cant be with xiao lan and tong tong... lao da dun wan xiao lan to get hurt that why he force himself to leave her... they go through a lot and they leave their parents... da xia like jiao er and they had go through a lot... although da xia scare that he will get reject de... but he continue to take care of jiao er.. love her... be with her for her every needs... is so touching la... i cry till my pillow got all wet... the two couple lyk one another but they cant be together... as they are from different world... i watch till i bring in my feeling lo... i cry a lot... because of my relationship... actually can be together but cant... haiz... dun noe how to say... maybe it my fault ba... haiz... but i juz think that no point hiding from her wad... so juz say out the truth lo... but end up.... haiz... nvm la... maybe im nt a gd bf ba... all i can do is wish her all the best... hope that she will find a much better guy den mi... willing to listen to her talk to her... dun end up lyk mi... talk till nth to talk... haiz.... anyway... im finding jobs... any one haf any jobs to offer please tell mi... anywhere i also dun care... muz haf free timing for mi to choose... cause if NUSS dun wan mi to work.. i will go there work... hours muz be long... pay rate above 5 per hour... thank you... if i can... i also wan to work midnight... so that i 24/7 working... hoping nt to think a lot... haiz... but will catch movie de... haha... but with who... haha... answer is... ALONE... wahaha... once a loner always a loner... haha... I HATE MYSELF... IF I CANT LOVE MYSELF... HOW CAN I EXPECT PPL TO LOVE MI... I DUN DESERVE PPL LOVE... NT AT ALL... i shall stop here and emo le... cant stop crying... juz now outside emo... mind totally blank... now at home emo... everything run through my mind... haiz...

Heart Pain Like Hell

back again... im here to do a survey... wad is more painful den heart pain... please tag mi with the answer... thanks you... haiz.. reach home only... go bath and online.. saw her offline msg... and her email... and heart totally very very hurtful.... like as if it had no more strength to beat anymore... haiz... if i had a choice i also dun wan to work today... but i had no choice... haiz... i did msg you when im out with my friends... although you waited so long for the msg... but i did bother to msg you... haiz... i already feel very hurtful when i noe the this friends of mine is going to leave mi le... juz because of MIC... haiz... nvm la... i did lose everything i had... when i gain one thing... i will lost a lot of things... haiz... but who care.... i also dun wan people to change because of mi... from the beginning i told you le... dun nid to change because of mi... haiz... nvm le la.. as you said... nt important anymore... haiz... and as i say... if you leaving mi will make you happier... i will let you go but of course i dun wan la... but styauing with mi will make you more sad and worry... haiz... until today... den i noe that NUSS suntec is a stupid place to had relationship la... guy haf wife and children and girl haf husband or boyfriend... but they can go out with another person in NUSS... haiz... stupid thougths they had... haiz.. and my bro is one of them... and i totally speechless or in fact... im also speechless... haiz... argh... i dun noe wad to type le.. cause now heart very pain... but nvm la... only readers of this blog will noe and i noe... i also dun care le la... nt anymore... i will try to be strong which i always failed... haiz... how la... something to think before i made my decision... should i put dun or do??? please tag mi for ur answer... that's for all... bye... and take care...

At Work On Saturday

hello... im back in the late night... and i haf yet to sleep... juz reach home... actually come home le den go out walk walk till now... about sat... wake up early in the morning... get ready and rush off to work... msg jiaxin... suddenly i haf the feeling that something is wrong somewhere... but nvm la... took bus to suntec... reach suntec... she called... and i had cough... she ask mi why i sick still go work... haiz... do i haf a choice... i dun haf... how i noe i will sick this week when i give my timing to boss last week... haiz... if i cant work... i had to find replacement... and where the hell i go look for replacement... haiz... every friends of mine will want to work with mi around... haiz... so she hang up and msg mi something... which make mi mood out the whole day even now... heart was totally hurtful than ever before... cause i noe that this time round it will be true... haiz... get change and when to canteen... saw the food and make mi wan to puke when the food look nice.... haiz... den go staircase sit and emo... emo till cry... den go work... Owen was wearing the walkie talkie... so i juz bring out the food lor... den work half way... go chiller take thing... den chef Steve was inside... den he ask mi why i look so down today.. den i say im sick.. den he ask mi gt gf or nt... den i say haf... but something happen... den he say ok... den i continue to work... den gt burn by soup... right palm was damn damn hurtful but wad else can be more hurtful den heart pain... den half way at around 2... i told Owen i go staircase rest for awhile but actually i went there to cry cause i cant tahan le... den finish work at 3... gt briefing by Alan(boss) den he talk about dec promo... promo: yuletide... 3 course cost $25 and 4 course cost $28... but this month promo is 3 course cost $22 and 4 course cost $26... den on the 15 nov... there is 120 pax wedding dinner... food runner will be mi... can die sia... haiz... den 16 nov... 120 pax western set course... also can die... haiz... den 23 nov... wedding again... dun noe how many pax... and it cost $888 per table sia... WOW... a lot sia... chef William and Alan will be inside the kitchen preparing the food... haha... move on... after briefing... i go down buy drink for my bro... den come up.. listen to her baby and his story... haiz... same old thing... haiz... i had the problem and yet i haf to listen yours... WTH... haiz... den i cried in front of him la.. den he ask mi wad happen den carol come take thing and she also ask mi wad happen... and all i can say is nth... OMG Darius... wad is wrong with you... den go canteen... see the food which make mi feel lyk puking again so nvr eat lor... den go staircase cry again... haiz... cry from 4 to 6.. powerful right... tap water free flow de... haiz... heart seriously hurts till i feel lyk taking any knife to cut it open... haiz... den work with unstable feeling... haiz.. den always do wrong things... bring out food also wrong station... haiz... after tt... finish work at 11... get change and cab back to BP... den meet guan ping at plaza and we go walk walk... he accompany mi home and took the chemistry book and we go walk walk again... walk till now den come home...

Nth to do

la la la... so boring... wake up at 1 plus plus... due to yesterday work till backache... walao.. this week illness a lot sia... first fever, second headache, third voice change, fourth flu, fifth heartache and many many more... haiz... nvm la... so people out there... dun worry wor... haha... i will be fine de... haha... eventhough i haf no mood to do things... but no choice but haf to accompany my darling to kent ridge(nuss) eventhough im nt feeling well... after today no time to go out with him le... haiz... will be damn busy working already... haha... yesterday after work.. i told my boss that i will be working almost everyday le... den will be watching movie with jiaxin some of the day... so during my working months... i wont be blogging often as i will staying at office due to working till late night till around 1am... haha... hope i will be ok ltr ba... take care to everyone out there... jiaxin... i love you and will always do...

Bad Day

Argh... having terrible headache and terrible heartache... haiz... shall nt talk about it... argh... all i wan now is sleep... I WAN TO SLEEP I WAN TO SLEEP I WAN TO SLEEP... haiz... morning heard a doorbell... thought gt wad surprise... end up salesman... early in the morning press wad doorbell la... you dun wan to sleep i wan to sleep de leh... although i woke up at 7 again... will nt post today... will nt online today... so everyone out there... take care of yourself... dun fall sick... good luck to whoever is taking o lvl SS paper tml... bye...

First Anniversary

back blogging again... shall start from yesterday... finally went back to work... was damn happy la that i finally can work service le... haha... thanks yi feng for taking over mi... haha... but end up nid my help also with the jackpot food... lol... working service is fun but no longer as fun as it should be as my darling left le... haiz... i really hate him calling mi juz to complain to mi about his MIC (made in china) haiz... nvm... shall continue with today... woke up at 7 dun noe for fuck... haiz... den wait for show... finish le... rush down to JP buy movie ticket... den rush home... and something happen... dun wish to say... or else very pek cek... den rush home... bath den eat den rush out le.... meet jiaxin at interchange at 1 den i reach interchange... i saw aida... she say hi to mi... lol... first time ever... haha... den board the bus to JP... den reach there.. meet up with her friends... den i go buy food... hot dog and ILT... haha... den go in... she like children sia... dark den cant see... aiyo... kid are kid... haha... den after movie... her friends go off le den we go walk walk... talk talk... end up at KFC... dun noe wad happen today... everywhere also haf long queue... haiz... den queue... was looking at the menu and when it was my turn... i look at the service crew... i thought i saw amelea... but it was nt... haha... forget her name le... den eat le... den gt a lot of ppl waiting for our seat... den i slowly drink my drink... haha... den she keep asking nt to play le.. den i let them seat lor... haha... den go interchange and board the bus back to BP den send her home... i juz hope that she was happy today cause i dun noe how many more anniversary there will be... i also dun care le... wad it matter is juz memories and nt long lasting for mi le... after that went home... on the way home... called someone... but end up quarreling... haiz... nvm... i think i shall nt bother you anymore... haiz... wish you all the best ba... haiz....

sorry jiaxin... gt one big secret to tell you... actually im nt sleepy at all... juz that i haf been having terrible headache since this morning when i woke up... sorry for nt telling you... juz dun wan you to worry...