Heart Pain Like Hell

back again... im here to do a survey... wad is more painful den heart pain... please tag mi with the answer... thanks you... haiz.. reach home only... go bath and online.. saw her offline msg... and her email... and heart totally very very hurtful.... like as if it had no more strength to beat anymore... haiz... if i had a choice i also dun wan to work today... but i had no choice... haiz... i did msg you when im out with my friends... although you waited so long for the msg... but i did bother to msg you... haiz... i already feel very hurtful when i noe the this friends of mine is going to leave mi le... juz because of MIC... haiz... nvm la... i did lose everything i had... when i gain one thing... i will lost a lot of things... haiz... but who care.... i also dun wan people to change because of mi... from the beginning i told you le... dun nid to change because of mi... haiz... nvm le la.. as you said... nt important anymore... haiz... and as i say... if you leaving mi will make you happier... i will let you go but of course i dun wan la... but styauing with mi will make you more sad and worry... haiz... until today... den i noe that NUSS suntec is a stupid place to had relationship la... guy haf wife and children and girl haf husband or boyfriend... but they can go out with another person in NUSS... haiz... stupid thougths they had... haiz.. and my bro is one of them... and i totally speechless or in fact... im also speechless... haiz... argh... i dun noe wad to type le.. cause now heart very pain... but nvm la... only readers of this blog will noe and i noe... i also dun care le la... nt anymore... i will try to be strong which i always failed... haiz... how la... something to think before i made my decision... should i put dun or do??? please tag mi for ur answer... that's for all... bye... and take care...