Ten Brothers

i finally finish watching ten brothers after 3 days of midnight... lao da and xiao lan one couple... lao san and tong tong one couple... as ten brothers are nt human... they cant be with xiao lan and tong tong... lao da dun wan xiao lan to get hurt that why he force himself to leave her... they go through a lot and they leave their parents... da xia like jiao er and they had go through a lot... although da xia scare that he will get reject de... but he continue to take care of jiao er.. love her... be with her for her every needs... is so touching la... i cry till my pillow got all wet... the two couple lyk one another but they cant be together... as they are from different world... i watch till i bring in my feeling lo... i cry a lot... because of my relationship... actually can be together but cant... haiz... dun noe how to say... maybe it my fault ba... haiz... but i juz think that no point hiding from her wad... so juz say out the truth lo... but end up.... haiz... nvm la... maybe im nt a gd bf ba... all i can do is wish her all the best... hope that she will find a much better guy den mi... willing to listen to her talk to her... dun end up lyk mi... talk till nth to talk... haiz.... anyway... im finding jobs... any one haf any jobs to offer please tell mi... anywhere i also dun care... muz haf free timing for mi to choose... cause if NUSS dun wan mi to work.. i will go there work... hours muz be long... pay rate above 5 per hour... thank you... if i can... i also wan to work midnight... so that i 24/7 working... hoping nt to think a lot... haiz... but will catch movie de... haha... but with who... haha... answer is... ALONE... wahaha... once a loner always a loner... haha... I HATE MYSELF... IF I CANT LOVE MYSELF... HOW CAN I EXPECT PPL TO LOVE MI... I DUN DESERVE PPL LOVE... NT AT ALL... i shall stop here and emo le... cant stop crying... juz now outside emo... mind totally blank... now at home emo... everything run through my mind... haiz...